Well, Fuck Me.

[litotease]

It's cancer. Surgical consult Monday afternoon. Further testing being done on the sample to determine what kind it is, how aggressive it is, and whether or not they'll want to do radiation/chemo/hormone therapy afterwards.

Still, knowing for sure is way better than the waiting and wondering and wild mood swings between optimism and terror of the last few days. Plus I'm a tough old bird, I'm at my best in a crisis, and this ain't yet the end of the world.

topaz119, logovo, lily_liedtome, katesnotes, and bluevsgrey, thank you guys so much. Every time I've felt wigged out or teary since Tuesday, I've pulled up something to read from the lists you left (I'm treating them like a Chinese Menu -- one from Column A, one from Column B...). It really, really helped.

Bless y'all. :)

Comments

[janedavitt.livejournal.com]

I'm so very sorry to hear this. God. Hope all goes well with the treatment ::hugs::

[topaz119.livejournal.com]

You're more than welcome; favorite fic is a simple enough thing to provide. I'm very glad it helped. I'm so sorry the news came back the way it did; good thoughts and hugs coming your way (someone once told me that fandom hugs groove to their own Jamaican vibe and I've pictured Marley-esque vibes dancing over the ether ever since. um, yeah. *koff*. YMMV.) If it helps to vent here, I'll be happy to listen.

[bluevsgrey.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

[katesnotes.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, still I'm sure you are right and it is better to know. Good luck and my best wishes to you. I'm glad you liked the links - I hope they continue to be helpfully distracting.

[lily-liedtome.livejournal.com]

Oh, I just saw this! I am so sorry. *hugs* I do hope you are doing alright (and continue to do so). I'm glad the links were helpful. As someone said above, feel free to vent here, I'm always happy to listen :)

*wills you strength and luck luck luck*


Beth

[logovo.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you today.

Hope you are enjoying some nice fic.