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c8h10n4o2junkie is filling out transfer apps, and in the fall she will be sailing off to a 4-Year school.  Her first choice schools are in British Columbia and Boston, both far away from our California home.  I am incredibly proud of her.  At the same time, she has been my closest and best companion for 24 years.  And every decision I've made in those years, good or bad, from "Where should I work?" to "Should I buy this shirt?" has had can you take care of her? at it's core.  I'm feeling a little lost and flail-y.

In preparation for her flight from the nest, we will be moving soon.  I can't keep our current apartment when she leaves (the two of us together qualify for a low-rent apartment that I won't qualify for alone, but I also can't afford Bay Area rent on my own).  Friends of ours who were looking for a new housemate have decided that the solution is to take both of us in until she's ready to go, so that they can keep me when she's gone (they're giving up their office-cum-crafts room for six months to make room for two).  While I am pleased, and tickled that they want me, it will also be the first time in 24 years that the roof I'm living under isn't mine, and I will no longer have a home for c8h10n4o2junkie to come home to.  Again, a little lost and flail-y.

But that's not actually what this post is about.

It's more about these things being things I want to talk about.  Plus a whole lot of other personal identity things that I haven't looked at for almost a quarter of a century, because my primary identity has been MOM.

I'm not sure that a fannish journal is the place to talk them out.  I've got another journal set up and prettified to use as a personal journal.

But I've realized that I like reading your personal stuff (slice of life, or personal struggle, or lunch today) as much as I like your fannish stuff.  Maybe more.

So how do y'all do it?  One journal?  Two?  Three?

And do you like to keep your fannish place fannish, so you can use it as a fun place to escape to?  Or do you like a mix of fan and real?

Tell me about your journaling selves.