For Anyone Who Might Come Calling

[litotease]

Hi, my name is Grace, and I'm a lurker.

I've been lurking around online, following one fandom to another (in alpha order: Battlestar Galactica, Buffy, Dead Zone, due South, Farscape, Firefly, Highlander,House, Hard Core Logo, Lord of the Rings, Man from U.N.C.L.E., The Sentinel, Smallville, Star Trek: TOS, Stargate: Atlantis, Stargate: SG1) for six or seven years. Currently, I'm so in love with Supernatural that I'm reeling.

I'm a slasher. And an OTP whore^{1, 2}. I loves me some Wincest. Even the wee!cest (I'm pretty sure that most of us lost our cherry before we were of legal age -- I was 17, and that was late in my crowd -- so anything post-prepubescent is fine with me).

I don't write (I'm tempted, on occasion, but I'm terrified I'd be -- not bad, but mediocre, which I think is even worse). I don't icon (at the moment -- single mom with a kid in college -- I can't justify spending money on decent graphics software, which leaves me with Paint), I don't vid (although I've been wanting to learn, and I do have MovieMaker, and some of you vidders out there might be hearing from me...).

What I do do (don't say it, Jensen) is read. A lot. Since I was 4 and was sent to live with my grandmother the former English teacher. The Cat in the Hat to The Happy Hollisters to the Trixie Belden books (I liked Trixie way better than Nancy Drew, but I may have been the only one since nobody else I know has ever heard of her) to Jane Eyre to Left Hand of Darkness and Lord of the Rings. I love a well written story.

And some of y'all out there write so well and wonderfully that it hurts my heart.

I set up this LiveJournal so that on the very, very rare occasions when I do leave feedback, there would be a name attached.

I don't leave feedback often. Sometimes, I feel really bad about this. Sometimes, when a new fandom kerfluffle kicks up (and they do), I'm really glad I'm watching from a distance.

Still, some of you have really enriched my life. Art, icons, music mixes, vids, and some of the most beautiful, heartbreaking, breathtaking, literate fiction I've ever read (Freedom's Just Another Word, anyone?). So, in the spirit of spn_appreciate, I'm gonna try to do better at letting y'all know.

Oh, also? I'm an old broad -- like half a century old. I do worry -- particularly in Supernatural since it's a really young fandom on the whole -- that the idea of a middle-aged woman perving on the Padackles or whatever is going to squick some of you (I think it would have bothered me back when I was 20). But it doesn't bother my kid, c8h10n4o2junkie, who's a 2nd generation slasher³, so I guess y'all can deal.

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¹Re: OTPS, I'm kind of funny, though. I don't mind if they sleep with someone else, or have group sex, or any other not-OTP permutation as long as it doesn't interfere with the primacy of the OTP. See Kissing, pt 2 (SGA) or Wicked (MfU) for example.

²I don't have slash OTPs for BSG or FS, as I'm really happy with the canon het relationships. As for the others: Spike/Xander, Johnny/Walt, Fraser/Ray K., Mal/Simon, Mac/Methos, House/Wilson, Joe/Billy, Boromir/Faramir, Napoleon/Illya, Jim/Blair, Clark/Lex, Kirk/Spock, John/Rodney, and Jack/Daniel.

³Honest, I didn't let her know what I was reading until she was 18!

Comments

[janedavitt.livejournal.com]

I'm 43 and my f-list ranges from 18 (or lower; I don't ask) to mid fifties so you're not alone at all. The net's very good at stripping away a lot of the usual methods of judging people as we're all invisible behind our words; age, appearance, class, race, accent...all wiped away unless we choose to share them.

And appreciating the beauty of the Winchesters is just a matter of having eyes ;-)

[gracecourage.livejournal.com]

And -- boy, oh, boy -- do I have eyes!

I like the way the internet "levels the playing ground" by eliminating whatever social judgments we all, consciously or not, make with our eyes. The only reason I know Supernatural skews young is that so many Author's Notes say "I really should be (reading about the Etruscans, memorizing cellular structure, preparing for that meeting with my Advisor tomorrow, etc.), but I'm posting fic instead!" (And if their scholarship is at the level of their writing craft, I'm sure they're all doing just fine with the academics.)

(And, ah! You're not quite old enough to have loved my first loves when first I loved them.)

(You write in almost every fandom I read; you betcha I've read your stuff. So, very belatedly, thank you!!!)

[janedavitt.livejournal.com]

Very happy you've enjoyed the fics and thank you for reading them!

[gracecourage.livejournal.com]

And since it was somebody other than you I actually made the "Spock and Illya" comment to, that line about "first loves" is pretty much a non sequitur, yes?

*hides face*

[janedavitt.livejournal.com]

::grins:; No worries :-)