Not Bad.

Happy Birthday and so, so much love to cold_poet.

I hope you get your heart's desire today, sweetheart. You deserve it!

::BIG HUG::

( Someday I will write about these things. They are old, and hard. )

And when I am ready to write about these things, I WILL NOT DO IT HERE. I'll do it at stand_up_eight instead (true for both DW & LJ). I set stand_up_eight  up for just that purpose. It may stand empty for years (it already has on LJ), and that's OK. I'm not ready, yet. But someday.

This journal, though, this one right here, isn't the place for that. It's my safe place. It's my place to be fannish, to play, my window to the world, to check in on y'all, to read amazingly astute commentary from stunningly bright minds. Sometimes it's my place to deal with current stuff in my life, but I generally cut-tag that.

I'm posting this here, now, because my DW stand_up_eight account is getting invite codes to hand out,  and I love handing out invite codes. *g* So I've put up a post there directing people here, but figured an explanation was in order. Plus, it's maybe time to explain to my long-time friends here why I frequently go radio silent, even when I'm clearly still hanging around (reading doesn't trigger the old shit, but interacting sometimes can -- which doesn't mean that I don't want to interact, because I do, I do. Just, sometimes it's harder than others.)

Crossposted to LiveJournal

Happy Birthday to janedavitt!

You spend all year long spreading happiness and good wishes. I hope that this year, every wonderful wish you've ever sent to one of us comes back to you tenfold.

Have a wonderful, wonderful day filled with fun.

*hugs*

I just got back from the SF DW Open Beta meet-up.

You guys! I made it there and I didn't back out at the last minute even though there were strangers there. And I met a table full of fans of all stripes (a couple of whom I've been lurking around/fangirling just a little on), and I had one beer too many and an absolute blast.

I'm going to expand my circle like crazy tomorrow. Right this minute, though, I have to go faceplant, since I've been up for 22 hours (work at 4 a.m., volunteer at 3 p.m., meet-up at 7:30 p.m., and it's after midnight now).

I haven't even seen Show yet! (It's on my hard drive, though.)

Anybody out there in the Bay Area who's not involved in closed beta testing for Dreamwidth, but who's planning on jumping in (or maybe just testing the waters) once open beta starts? (I'm assuming the closed beta testers have all seen the notice on DW, but if not -- Hey, you guys! Hey! *points down*)

damned_colonial is putting together a "We Made it to Open Beta!" party so that DW users old and new can get together and meet each other, and I'd love to see &/or meet y'all.

Details here.

Oh. Oh oh oh. Oh.

You guys!

*flails*

I just. I was spoiled for this one, and I was pretty sure I was going to hate it.

But then I didn't. Except for the parts that I did. Which weren't the parts I was expecting, at all.

( Massive spoilers, ahoy! )

So, hey. Did anybody else want to thunk Dean on the head in that last scene? Dude, duh. I mean, we've know that since Season One. Sheesh.

Crossposting to LJ manually, because I'm not sure if cut-tags are crossposting, and I'm not willing to risk it with spoilers. *g*

This is a test. This is only a test. *g*

I'm adding all of y'all (what!?! That's a perfectly valid phrase!) to my circle over at DW, if I know you've set up there, too.(I haven't posted yet, or set up my profile, you understand; I'm just lookin' for you guys at this point.)

If I've missed you, holler. (Or come and find me there; name's the same.)

Also, &hearts &hearts &hearts to you all. I'm neglecting everybody this week due to split days off and overtime and stress. (Plus those few days my internet was down. :/ Withdrawal is an ugly thing.) I want to catch up and say "Hi" and I will soon, but not today. Or tomorrow. Or...

I get so confused when I see tags like "Sam/Dean" or "John/Rodney" AND the tag "Gen" on the same story.

Sub-textual pairing? Paired but no sexin'? Can be read as either, depending on whether or not the slash goggles are on?

Confused, I tell you.

Several people on my flist have stepped up to the plate and made a public stance today on RaceFail09. I haven't, because (1) my flist is tiny and (2) OMG, y'all, I'm so open about who I am that you have to know where I'd stand on this one.

Then I read this response from bossymarmalade in kita0610's post on why saying something publicly is important (thank you janedavitt for the link): "My sister (who recently has been diving headfirst into discussions of race on her journal due to her work on the Avatar whitewashing protest) has been telling me that with every post she makes, new people on her friendslist reveal that they're *not* anti-racists..."

So, maybe y'all don't know.

On Bigotry of Any Kind, Anywhere: No "othering" ever. Ever. Not because of who you fuck, or how you fuck, or whether or not your legs work, or what church or coven you do or don't attend, or what clothing size you wear, or whether your genitals are innie or outie or have been surgically altered, or how much cash is or isn't in your pocket, or how much pigment is in your skin, or, or, or. And anyone who has ever been othered for any reason has the right to use whatever tone they please in calling out people who other others, consciously or not, including me. Because I grew up in the U.S., and the messages of dismissal (at minimum) and hatred (all too often) are endemic, and I am appalled when I spot my own unconscious internal biases, some of which even apply to groups of which I myself am a member.

Specifically Regarding Race: I used to think highly of the little, local police department in the small town where I work. But then, I have never been pulled over at night while wearing my store's work uniform and asked what I was doing in the neighborhood. Every single POC who works on night shift with me (and we've got a rainbow) has had that experience. That's my white privilege showing. When I was younger, because of other -isms that apply to me, I didn't think I had a whole lot of privilege; I would have argued the fact. Boy, was I wrong. I am now trying to sit down, shut up, listen, and learn.

On Outing: No. Nope. Nada. Nein. Never. Not anyone else's decision to make, nor repercussions to live with. Just, no. (OK, one exception: any public authority figure who gets caught engaging in a behavior they have publicly excoriated and who then tries to deny it, i.e. any politician who spouts homophobic rhetoric who then gets caught in a homophilic act. But that's not what happened, here.)